Hello peoples! Thanks for reading this, and by doing so implying that this blog is actually interesting! Now, I still need to convince myself that I actually have the time to maintain a blog…
Anyways, time to introduce myself. My name is Jonathan! (very unique name, I know) I am a full time student, I am a faithful Christian… well, I do my best on the faithful part… thank God for His boundless mercy! In my free time, I train in martial arts, make music, indulge in various nerdy media, and enjoy reading a good book, whenever I have the time. My ideal place to live would be somewhere wooded, with the smell of water nearby. (something about the smell of water is so invigorating!) I also love food, both the making and eating of it, but mostly the eating part. And I am same-sex attracted, and celibate.
Let us take a moment, and appreciate the subtle sound of everybody hurriedly clicking to somewhere else on the internet after reading that last sentence, shall we?… Oh, you stayed? Well then, allow me to provide a little bit of explanation.
Yes, I am same-sex attracted. I have been attracted to men my entire life, and I believe that my sexual orientation is not likely to change through any effort on my behalf. I also believe what the Scriptures say about sexuality; that sex is to be reserved for marriage between a man and a woman. Over the past year, and after reading many books and articles, I have been led to the decision to remain celibate. Now, you may see that word and imagine me living a boring, friendless life, where I come home each night to nothing other than a pet and an empty bed. And I’ll admit, I do have a fear that that will be the case, but for the most part I see something far different. I see a life in which I am able to give everything I have in service of God. I see a life full of blessing. I see a means of aiding the church in separating itself from an over-sexualized culture, and of helping others live a life of devotion to Christ. In short, I see a life lived joyfully, a vocation of joy!
My stance on celibacy does deserve a bit of clarification. By saying I am celibate, I am not saying that I will refuse to marry someone that God puts right before me, but I am saying that I will not focus my energies on finding a spouse. I do believe that a mixed-orientation marriage is possible, but I choose to focus on growing in my faith rather than on a potential marriage. To be frank, however, I’m not entirely set in my attitude towards celibacy. I still have many unresolved thoughts on when and how to pursue a marriage, if the situation arises. All in all though, I am certain that if I trust God, I will live a life full of joyous service to Him and to my community. I once read a phrase that sums up a life of celibacy almost perfectly: “Indefinitely living a celibate life as a sacrifice of praise.” I have no idea who said it, but it rings very true to me. I have resigned my life to God, and I will remain celibate as long as He sees fit, and I do all of this out of praise for my Heavenly Father, who has been far more gracious to me than I deserve. As the Westminster Catechism says, “Man’s chief is end is to glorify God, and to enjoy Him forever.”
A bit fuller story will be coming shortly, but I’ll leave that for another post. For now, let me give you a little advice as to what to expect from this blog. First off, I do NOT pull provoking thoughts out of my head one right after another. You know what I’m talking about. Some people just seem to be an endless well of wisdom, pulling post after post of the most interesting topics you can imagine out of their head, kind of like this. When I try that, it usually ends up looking something like this. Yeah, it’s not pretty… However, I do get random inspirations for topics throughout my everyday life, and those will be the things I post about. As a result, posts may be a bit more sporadic than most blogs.
I also do not intend on attacking or disrespecting anyone else’s views. I definitely disagree with a lot of people, but I respect other people’s opinions and beliefs. At the very least, I want people to be able to provide constructive thoughts on the topics that I write about. At the very most, maybe I can help someone who is struggling with coming to terms with their faith and sexuality, similarly to how other blogs helped me when I was struggling.
So that’s that. I am now a member of the blogging world! I always welcome questions, discussion, or even just comments on how to make my blog better. Thanks for taking a few minutes out of your day to spend reading my “hopefully” coherent ramblings!